Tomorrow is my last day of school. ever. I'm talking about for the rest of my life. And that is weirder than weird.
My entire life I have never EVER liked school. I was the kid (and college student)who always stared at the clock in every period, waiting to go home. I never had a summer break where I was excited to go back to school. Usually the beginning of each school year was met with sheer dread. School has never been good.
And here I am, practically hours away from being done with school for the rest of my life...and I'm sad.
Am I going to miss lectures, homework, paying ridiculous amounts of money on books that I read twice in the semester? Uh...no. Not. One. Bit. What I am going to miss is being a student. Since Fall of 1991 I have never NOT been a student. I never took a semester off to work, didn't go on a mission, didn't take time off to find myself. Aside from summer breaks I have always been in school. It's all I know. Career? Isn't that what old people get? I always thought I was YEARS away from that.
Suddenly I feel old and boring. Whenever I hear about people in college, that will simply be something I did once long ago. Even though I certainly WON'T miss school, I WILL miss being a student.
Monday, May 3, 2010
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I share the same sentiments about school. I don't think I can relate to your current predicament, since I NEVER felt anything close to the emotion "sad" when I finished school. Just make sure you like whatever job you get. Otherwise, you'll still be staring at the clock every day.
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