Wuss Alert

I have always, ALWAYS been a wuss.

When I was a kid, I got homesick at almost every overnight outing- even when I visited my beloved cousins. There were several nights when I would stay the night at a friend's house only to ask their parents to drive me home or have my parents pick me up around 1 am. Just couldn't hack it.

When I was a Senior, I was soooo scared to move away from home. I decided that BYU was out of the question (800 miles from my mom? But what if I NEED something??) and applied to only Washington schools. I got into Central Washington University, which was about a whopping 3 hours away ....mmmm, no. Too far.

When I was 20, I FINALLY took the plunge and went to BYU...but ALL of my siblings were living in Provo at the time (which was awesome), and I was rooming with my sister. So, it really wasn't all that brave.

Throughout my BYU days, my siblings trickled away into different states until I was the lone sibling left. However, by then I was seriously dating Jordan and had incredibly close girlfriends so I had a comfortable pseudo-family. Plus, my grandmother was ill in Clearfield so my parents were making somewhat frequent trips to Utah ....so, yeah. Still not all that brave.

The scariest move was definitely moving to Tulsa right after we got married. New state, no family in driving distance (on my side, at least), and I knew hardly anyone. However, Jordan's entire immediate family lives in the next town over, and Jordan had friends and knew where everything was and how Tulsa worked. My in-laws were (and still are) a huge help and we see them very often...Still not completely brave.

As Jordan has been slowly approaching graduation, we have been asked "So...whereyaguysgonnago?" repeatedly. Initially, I would respond, "We could go ANYWHERE! California, Vegas, back to Seattle, maybe somewhere cool in Texas, the possibilities are ENDLESS!" Don't I sound awesomely adventuress??  As more time has passed, Jordan has seriously considered going into Dermotology. This is a great field for PA's, but it is hard to get into without any experience. We decided together that we would be willing to go almost anywhere that could get Jordan's foot in the Derm door. That means that recently, when ask us where we are headed, we have courageously said, "We are willing to go anywhere if it gets Jordan into Derm, and we plan to stay there for a few years".

I had been giving myself mad props for my bravery and how exciting it can be to go somewhere far away and magical. However, today Jordan excitedly told me about a lead he got from his current derm preceptor who offered to make a reference for Jordan to a practice looking for a new PA. Jordan was happily telling me about this great potential opportunity when he stated, "And it is only in Oklahoma City!"

"....Oklahoma City? BUT THAT'S ALMOST TWO HOURS AWAY FROM TULSA!!!! AAAAUGH!"

I've been a bit of an internal nervous wreck ever since. Turns out I will always be wuss!